People's EGO

One thing that i could not hold back from was seeing my friends gets bullied.

I didn't mind if i was pushed around, but don't do it to my friends/ family because i will not stand around and do nothing.

That is why i noticed throughout all my life, with all the people that i have encountered. They either like me or they don't or think that I don't like them hence they need to not like me first. So childish i know.

Like i said before, some said that i am very naive and i am pretending, and they don't like me for it.

Others think that i am in league with the enemy and condemns me for it. It is just that i would like to think that i get along with everyone if i wanted to. 

This guy is married and he called up to get me to go to a karaoke session with him, his wife and another of my co-worker. I had just reached home from an all day shopping and quite tired. And i have to get ready and out the door in 30min. I went anyway. It started out ok. But we reached a song duet. While he kept singing i couldn't and kept using the mike to say how we sounded so bad thinking that he would just gave up and skipped the song. I didn't know he was angry at me for doing so. When another duet came on and i was singing.. He deliberately ruined the song from start to finish. His wife kept elbowing him asking him to stop. But he never. So much respect for wife eh? So childish too. He did it on purpose, i didn't know i was doing it. Again, i was taught at an early age to not retaliate. So i didn't. I was angry but i got over it.

For example, my co-workers always asked me to go with them for some dinner. I went with my tendering manager, i went with my other co-workers for another event, and i even went to other events that i don't really feel like going just because they asked me to. But when it comes the time that i need company, there was nobody there. I even planned to bring my tendering manager along for a dealer meeting/ dinner last Thursday thinking that she would return the favour. She straight out rejected me. What the hell? Asked my other co- workers, nobody wants to go. I was so frustrated and just rsvp for 2.  I did managed to get my junior to come along if my boss isn't going because he didn't really gave me an 'ok'. But in the end he did went and asked me to go along too. This brings me back to my car accident i had a few years back. Where i had dropped all work and rushed home to my cousin when she had an accident near our place. I received none of the same treatment from her. *sigh.

Anyway the point that i am trying to make and still learning is do not expect other to give you the same treatment that they seek and gotten from you.

Some people i just don't understand. They just don't see you unless you have something that they wanted. Or they wanted respect from you but gives you none. This is the people i tried to stay away from but hard to because i do seek their attention.

I have dealt with more powerful men and women. Somehow they showed you that they can be a lot more engaging than those fakers.

I wanted to name names but what is the point. There will always be these kind of people in this world, but i have an even bigger issue to attend to than their stupid Ego.

Passport Renewal at Puchong Utama JPN Branch

I went to renew my passport last December seeing how it would expire in less than 6 month and i have an oversea trip planned in January 2015.

It was really conveniant that we have a JPN branch right here in Puchong Utama. 

I went there really early in the morning, like i reach before 7am. The sky is still dark And i wonder if people have started queuing or will it be safe for a lone girl to queue so early.

It turns out i was not the only one there. There were already 16 people in front of me when i started to queue and this one Pakcik started to cut my line saying he was here well before i was. But he went to the coffee shop next door for breakfast.

I wanted to tell him off that i would like to have breakfast too but instead i stood there for 2 hrs as the JPN only opens at 9am.

I completely ignored him and told him to go to the back. He disregarded me and slotted himself in two kids infront of me. They let him. It was so not fair.

Anyway, i was a little worried that i didnt get a passport photo done as i heard that it will be taken on the spot. I did tried to get in taken the day before but the shop was closed.

So here's what you need for a passport renewal:-

1- your old passport

2- ic

3- money cash rm300

4- wear a dark coloured tops (i wore blac)

5- do not wear any short skirts or shorts (i have seen a lady wearing dress with the hem just above the knee told to go home and change as they said 'you came here for official reasons, so you better be dressed formally).

6-strong bladder and legs

We were told to queue on the right and those who wants to do their ic are to queue on the left.

When the door was opened, we filed inside to get our number and were told to go upstairs to get our picture taken. We have tl go out the front door and to the right of the staircase.

There we waited to get our turn with the picture and then wait somemore to pay for our passport. I was told to come back in 1hr to collect my passport.

I went to the malay mamak Bravo eateries, i have been meaning to go there for quite sometime but i felt like they would not welcome me. As i felt this place is so much different from sabah. I dared not go in until that day.

All in all the whole process took me 3 hrs. I was done at 10am. I could still go back to work half day but something about my company's admin that doesn't like us changing our leaves from 1 day to half day or do any changes whatsoever that irkes them.

So i took my time, went to do hair treatment, enjoyed my lunch and i forgot what else i did.

Chinese new year 2015 mood

I went to the grocery store this morning. I was amused to see the rush of people doing last minute shopping for chinese new year. There were a lot of people buying boxes of mandarin oranges, canned drinks by the boxes, cookies etc. Looking at my own basket with peanuts, junk food and instant noodles. I don't know what i was feeling at that moment. Sadness? Loneliness? People my age are married with kids running around. 

I am still holding on to a future of married life. Having kids with rockstar names.

I never planned on getting married. I played with dolls and have them get married but never have i planned a wedding of my own. 

I have celulites now! So Ugly! I Have been thinking of going to the gym lots of times.  

But i never went.

A great Start to the New Year

I had a great start to the new year.. To start, my list of things to do..

1) Backpack to an Asian country (Philipines maybe)

2) Go to at least 1 concert even if it meant me going alone

3) Go to a fun fair

4) Go to a book fair ( Big Bad Wolf)☑️ (went to it 3 times)

5) Go to Jump Street PJ for a little bouncy fun

6) Go to the gym often

7) Go to China Lung Yan ( Kong2's birth place). This could probably be in April as well.

8) Pay off PTPTN loan☑️(paid it off today 25-1-2015)

9) 

10)

Still haven't figured out the other 2 though. 

I know that a lot of people are being tied down with the burden of student loans behind their back.

I know that i was too. Everytime i went to collect cheques for the company, i never failed to mention that 'wow, this can easily pay off my student loan'. I had been given a sizable bonus this year and have decided that it was time to settle it once and for all. Plus the government has given 20% off of the loan if we are to pay in lump sum just before the 31st of March 2015.

I now am approaching 33 yrs of age have now officially cleared the one debt that has been bugging me right after i graduated. I pity my younger brother going through the same shit as me.

Freedom at last.

Another post for December 2014

Let's go straight to the point, i will plan to do the following for 2015:-

1) Backpack to an Asian country (Philipines maybe)

2) Go to at least 1 concert even if it meant me going alone

3) Go to a fun fair

4) Go to a book fair ( Big Bad Wolf)

5) Go to Jump Street PJ for a little bouncy fun

6) Try to Go to the gym often

7) Go to China Lung Yan ( Kong2's birth place). This could probably be in April as well.

8) Pay off PTPTN loan

9)

10)

My company is planning a company trip from 29th April till 5th May 2015 anywhere from Australia to China. However, i already have a trip planned with my 2nd elder brother to Laos Vientienne from 2nd may till 5th of may 2015. I have already bought the ticket and booked the hotel. I am really excited about this trip because i hardly have time to bond with my brother ever since .. Well forever.. I don't know how it's going to go down, i just hope that he's not going to be angry at me all the time.

When i do go for the company trip, i might bring along my MamaRoach. 

But i saw that the price is 5k to 6k. *Faint. Maybe i can ask the brothers to chip in. Slim chance.

A few weeks left for December 2014. I will go to the Big Bad Wolf book fair to get some books for the niece and nephews.

December 2014

Hooray... My favourite month of the year is finally here. Well as i am typing this, there's 8minutes left to midnight.

Anyway... Yay... I love it, one thing is because it's my birthday month!

And Christmas is just around the corner.

I get to spend and pamper myself without guilt.

Breast pain

I have been experiencing severe burning pain on my right breast for close to 1 month. I did some reading and found out little about what caused it.

My reading did suggest that it might be the side effect of too much caffeine in my diet.

I have been chugging 2-3 cups of coffee a day. Now that we have ran out of the 3 in 1 cofee in my office pantry. I am now free of caffeine. Well, i am drinking tea now.

And another cause one is probably because of a pinched nerve somewhere. What i do know is that breast pain is not a usual cause of cancer.

I am thankful that i am pain free for 2 days now. Still stings a little though.

Let me break it down for you.

The pain is like, it didn't hurt if i didn't touch it. But once I did, it started with a pinch and spread to la hot fiery/ burning sensation. I mean it hurts like a mother. It takes my breath away. I would grunt and doubled over.

I had so many theories in my head, including bug bites, stung by an insect, some creepy crawlies like on the TV shows about monsters inside you, some spell, ghostly encounters, effect of taking too many supplement at once (lecithin-e, tumeric capsule, pine bark tree tablets), or the effect of propping on my elbows watching the computer screens which in turns choked up my blood flow to the arm and breast. I mean all the weird things. I did not go to the doctor. Why? Coz i think it will go away. And i hope it will. I have been taking EPO which I've heard can reduce the pain.

Am i hormonal? This does not feel like PMS. 

I told my coworker about it, and she doesn't seem to get it and straight away told me she had breastpain too. Not a really good listener. Anyway, I'm dealing with it and again thankful for the pain lessening.