When i was little, i was always the odd one out. In my family and with my cousins (who have sisters to conspire against me). I have only me against the world. I do have best friends in school, but i wasn't accepted where it matters most. I used to feel guilty from wearing all the new clothes my parents bought for me and i tried to compensate by lending my cousin my dresses so that we can be pretty together. I did a lot of shady stuff back then that i am not proud of in order to feel like i am one of the crew.

When i was down and started complaining to my mom, she would remind me that 'i don't have to treat people like how they treated me (bad)'. In other words 'No Revenge please'. In a way, this might be the reason why i am such a passive person. I know that i don't have a high level of tolerance in me but is passivity and patience the same?

I would not return a wrong order from waiters. I would not say anything if the service i got is not up to par with what i have paid for. I would not charge the guy who banged into my car just because the police said it's not his fault. I would not demand the workshop people to fix my car paint at the area that was not suppose to have scratch marks on it.