Found my file neatly tucked under a pile of documents at the main con site office...
I'm sooo happy... guess my constant prayers are answered.. there goes my birthday wish for this year..!! ehehe heck.. it's worth it...
Wednesday, December 3, 2008
Monday, December 1, 2008
Some one to Listen….
Some one to Listen….
Lately with all the things that I went through… I was kind of in a down mood.. u know… when I was at home with my brothers.. I used to yap about my problems at them.. I know that they didn’t really care but at least they were there pretending to listen…. I know… coz I almost always didn’t get any respond… but I was satisfied by just letting all that is bothering me out….. sometimes, gale & laipeng was like that too.. but I almost always got some respond/ advices…..
Now I could hardly find anyone to complain about my day… recently, about how I lost my project file at site…I tried with ah pang but he was only interested on how his daughter was so naughty n couldn’t sit still, economy, political issues of how RB was easily let off, how the cops involved & their family never showed their faces, how A’s father who made so much noise during the early stages of trials seems to just disappear from the face of the earth assuming he was bribe by N for millions/ billions of US $, how the Penan in Sarawak was badly treated what with the Bakun dam, how the government screwed up the multimedia super corridor in sabah, but he finally shuts up about the fuel price hike (told me it wouldn’t go down in a million years when it first went up..him with all his ideas).. now it’s down to RM2 or RM2.15, he changes his mind by saying no not the fuel price..it’s the food price that wouldn’t go down…whatever.. I stopped listening long after he compared races n the aborigines, religions, how we cook our simple food n so on…. I’m an opinionated girl but it seems that I can’t win with him.. he does OWN a company….I even tried to confide to Una too that day.. but apparently my problems were not worth listening to… I stopped telling her my problem before I even finished my story…
I never felt so alone than last Friday… I started welling up at the restaurant…confide by text to wai…. At least he had something to say.. See… don’t tell me I never tried… I never thought of Eja.. simply coz I feel that our topic of conversation doesn’t matched…
I tried once when we were out for lunch… she changed the subject to one that centers on herself without giving any feedback… hm.. she likes clubbing.. maybe because of having the chance to dress up, that’s what we girls do.. I like dressing up and getting a feel for the environment.... I went coz I knew she wouldn’t know the way even though we went there like a million times... for shopping… that’s a different story… she could shop better than I do….
Una might be wondering why I always holed up in my room whenever they’re home… she asked me not to before we even move to their new house... I have a few reasons for that… I was used to watching TV without any form of distraction, I’m ok watching with people with the same channel interest.. I did so with Laipeng during college… I played with the baby when Una’s cooking or ah pang was trying to watch the news… I knew I wouldn’t have the chance to hog the TV coz of the different interest in channel viewing choice… I’m more of a STAR WORLD, AXN, DISCOVERY,MTV, E! kind of girl, he was more towards the NTV7, 8TV, TV3 kind of guy, she was an AFC and whatever he’s watching kind… but I have no problem with that too since I could record almost everything with my Astro Max.. but only when they don’t turned off the decoder when they’re done watching….
He stopped taking her to the movies after they got married n have baby… I like Wong Kwok Char Chan Teng, Kim Gary and all the likes… I like stuff they hate.. I like flavours in my food… they don’t…. whatever I find nice to eat… they diss ‘em… I find it odd… and I realized that we grew up in different household.. moms cooked different food… my mom cooked all these nice good to eat food.. I like her moms cooking if I’m trying to find something healthy.. coz they always have simple healthy veggies…I like their soup as well…. always feel like I was forced to finish everything… my dad never forced me to eat anything…maybe I like unhealthy food… I find ‘em nice… I like my veggies in oyster sauce or laced with salted fish, I like Foo Chow dan tang, I like thick mushroom soup, I like fried toufu, I like sweet & sour fish, I like lemon fish, I like cooked & sliced cucumber, I like the short bean, I like kailan laced with salted fish, I do like Tie Ban Tou Fu, I like fried Lala, I like fried carrot cake, I like my mom’s seaweed + egg+ ginger soup, I like soup not just water+ slimy leaves+ anchovy+ ginger…I don’t like anything slimy and sweet pumpkin soup...i’d rather eat junk food.. she could attest to that herself…mentioned it once….
But I came to terms with it already… I only hope that I could find someone & do something quick before I self-destruct from all these pressures…
Lately with all the things that I went through… I was kind of in a down mood.. u know… when I was at home with my brothers.. I used to yap about my problems at them.. I know that they didn’t really care but at least they were there pretending to listen…. I know… coz I almost always didn’t get any respond… but I was satisfied by just letting all that is bothering me out….. sometimes, gale & laipeng was like that too.. but I almost always got some respond/ advices…..
Now I could hardly find anyone to complain about my day… recently, about how I lost my project file at site…I tried with ah pang but he was only interested on how his daughter was so naughty n couldn’t sit still, economy, political issues of how RB was easily let off, how the cops involved & their family never showed their faces, how A’s father who made so much noise during the early stages of trials seems to just disappear from the face of the earth assuming he was bribe by N for millions/ billions of US $, how the Penan in Sarawak was badly treated what with the Bakun dam, how the government screwed up the multimedia super corridor in sabah, but he finally shuts up about the fuel price hike (told me it wouldn’t go down in a million years when it first went up..him with all his ideas).. now it’s down to RM2 or RM2.15, he changes his mind by saying no not the fuel price..it’s the food price that wouldn’t go down…whatever.. I stopped listening long after he compared races n the aborigines, religions, how we cook our simple food n so on…. I’m an opinionated girl but it seems that I can’t win with him.. he does OWN a company….I even tried to confide to Una too that day.. but apparently my problems were not worth listening to… I stopped telling her my problem before I even finished my story…
I never felt so alone than last Friday… I started welling up at the restaurant…confide by text to wai…. At least he had something to say.. See… don’t tell me I never tried… I never thought of Eja.. simply coz I feel that our topic of conversation doesn’t matched…
I tried once when we were out for lunch… she changed the subject to one that centers on herself without giving any feedback… hm.. she likes clubbing.. maybe because of having the chance to dress up, that’s what we girls do.. I like dressing up and getting a feel for the environment.... I went coz I knew she wouldn’t know the way even though we went there like a million times... for shopping… that’s a different story… she could shop better than I do….
Una might be wondering why I always holed up in my room whenever they’re home… she asked me not to before we even move to their new house... I have a few reasons for that… I was used to watching TV without any form of distraction, I’m ok watching with people with the same channel interest.. I did so with Laipeng during college… I played with the baby when Una’s cooking or ah pang was trying to watch the news… I knew I wouldn’t have the chance to hog the TV coz of the different interest in channel viewing choice… I’m more of a STAR WORLD, AXN, DISCOVERY,MTV, E! kind of girl, he was more towards the NTV7, 8TV, TV3 kind of guy, she was an AFC and whatever he’s watching kind… but I have no problem with that too since I could record almost everything with my Astro Max.. but only when they don’t turned off the decoder when they’re done watching….
He stopped taking her to the movies after they got married n have baby… I like Wong Kwok Char Chan Teng, Kim Gary and all the likes… I like stuff they hate.. I like flavours in my food… they don’t…. whatever I find nice to eat… they diss ‘em… I find it odd… and I realized that we grew up in different household.. moms cooked different food… my mom cooked all these nice good to eat food.. I like her moms cooking if I’m trying to find something healthy.. coz they always have simple healthy veggies…I like their soup as well…. always feel like I was forced to finish everything… my dad never forced me to eat anything…maybe I like unhealthy food… I find ‘em nice… I like my veggies in oyster sauce or laced with salted fish, I like Foo Chow dan tang, I like thick mushroom soup, I like fried toufu, I like sweet & sour fish, I like lemon fish, I like cooked & sliced cucumber, I like the short bean, I like kailan laced with salted fish, I do like Tie Ban Tou Fu, I like fried Lala, I like fried carrot cake, I like my mom’s seaweed + egg+ ginger soup, I like soup not just water+ slimy leaves+ anchovy+ ginger…I don’t like anything slimy and sweet pumpkin soup...i’d rather eat junk food.. she could attest to that herself…mentioned it once….
But I came to terms with it already… I only hope that I could find someone & do something quick before I self-destruct from all these pressures…
Saturday, November 29, 2008
Dumbstruck..where's my file
Gila la...how come my project file pandai hilang..?
hm...i remember that i brought it out of the meeting room... Lim even made sure i brought the duct calculator in my bag... then, i went to the site office next to the meeting roo, to save some document from winson... That's when i took out my file and put it some where (pretty sure on top of the cabinet next to Winson's desk) and took out my tiny Flashdrive...
That is also when i didn't put the file back in my bag..instead i was a little surprise by how i can fit my drawing in my bag where i couldn't previously ( didn't strike me at that time that it was because i didn't have the file with me) all these time i was walking towards my car... I was only thinking on how not to get lost when i go to CIMB in Jalan Tun Perak for my Bank Guarantee Copy...I even took my bag from the seat behind to get to my drinking bottle, which didn't cause me any trouble (again...because i don't have the file with me at that time!!! argh)...
My bag was so light when i go down to CIMB...
I only realised that i have forgotten about the file when i was walking towards my office...
Checked my car 3 times... called Winson & Lim to go n look for me..I'm really sorry that i have to ask Lim to go to Stonor site again .... And still couldn't find any white coloured file there...Really sorry Lim.. I'd go myself if i havent already reached office... he was even stuck in traffic near KLCC...
So now I can only hope that somebody will find the file & return it to me on the next meeting on Wednesday... I'm really bummed out about this.. And i have lots of paperwork to top it off..~~
Missing in white file:
1) 3 Original copies of Architech's Draft Letter of Intent
2) Copy of Method Statement for Cealing Concealed & surface run Conduit
3) Copy of Draft Work Programme
4) Most Importantly is My Duct Calculator (only 2 for whole office use- now left 1)
5) Original/Coloured AC & fan Catalogues
6) Map to JFE
7) Minutes of meeting ( 28/11/2008)
8) Section of work progress (typical from Basement to Level 8)
9) Faxed drawings designs from SQM
At first, Winson thought that Amran from Langsutra took em by mistake since we put our stuff next to one another.. but he said he didn't take any white file.. he only took their own blue coloured file..
Where is my File..?
hm...i remember that i brought it out of the meeting room... Lim even made sure i brought the duct calculator in my bag... then, i went to the site office next to the meeting roo, to save some document from winson... That's when i took out my file and put it some where (pretty sure on top of the cabinet next to Winson's desk) and took out my tiny Flashdrive...
That is also when i didn't put the file back in my bag..instead i was a little surprise by how i can fit my drawing in my bag where i couldn't previously ( didn't strike me at that time that it was because i didn't have the file with me) all these time i was walking towards my car... I was only thinking on how not to get lost when i go to CIMB in Jalan Tun Perak for my Bank Guarantee Copy...I even took my bag from the seat behind to get to my drinking bottle, which didn't cause me any trouble (again...because i don't have the file with me at that time!!! argh)...
My bag was so light when i go down to CIMB...
I only realised that i have forgotten about the file when i was walking towards my office...
Checked my car 3 times... called Winson & Lim to go n look for me..I'm really sorry that i have to ask Lim to go to Stonor site again .... And still couldn't find any white coloured file there...Really sorry Lim.. I'd go myself if i havent already reached office... he was even stuck in traffic near KLCC...
So now I can only hope that somebody will find the file & return it to me on the next meeting on Wednesday... I'm really bummed out about this.. And i have lots of paperwork to top it off..~~
Missing in white file:
1) 3 Original copies of Architech's Draft Letter of Intent
2) Copy of Method Statement for Cealing Concealed & surface run Conduit
3) Copy of Draft Work Programme
4) Most Importantly is My Duct Calculator (only 2 for whole office use- now left 1)
5) Original/Coloured AC & fan Catalogues
6) Map to JFE
7) Minutes of meeting ( 28/11/2008)
8) Section of work progress (typical from Basement to Level 8)
9) Faxed drawings designs from SQM
At first, Winson thought that Amran from Langsutra took em by mistake since we put our stuff next to one another.. but he said he didn't take any white file.. he only took their own blue coloured file..
Where is my File..?
Saturday, November 22, 2008
I'm in doubt
I'm currently working in a project... kinda stressfull for me..since this is my first time handling a site project & all the management issue...
I'm kinda doubtful whether i can pull this off in two years time to complete this project...
I know i've been waiting for this opportunity since the first day i came in this company...coz i don't think that i can learn anything without visual help or doing hands on job by going to the site...I don't like seeing my experiences in my company profile only stated as *preparing tender, n seeing how the new guy had more experience & knowledge with on site situation...
And now that i'm finally going through with it... it stresses me out mann....i hope this only happened in the begining... lots of paperwork, designing & drawing... n costing comparison to do...
hm...anyway..i will get through this... this is what i signed up for.. and not in a laidback government job.. all the challenges suits me... i'm sure there'd come a time that i might crack a little...~~ but i'm sure i'll be fine...ehhe...
I'm kinda doubtful whether i can pull this off in two years time to complete this project...
I know i've been waiting for this opportunity since the first day i came in this company...coz i don't think that i can learn anything without visual help or doing hands on job by going to the site...I don't like seeing my experiences in my company profile only stated as *preparing tender, n seeing how the new guy had more experience & knowledge with on site situation...
And now that i'm finally going through with it... it stresses me out mann....i hope this only happened in the begining... lots of paperwork, designing & drawing... n costing comparison to do...
hm...anyway..i will get through this... this is what i signed up for.. and not in a laidback government job.. all the challenges suits me... i'm sure there'd come a time that i might crack a little...~~ but i'm sure i'll be fine...ehhe...
Monday, November 17, 2008
O..Brother..!~
Hm...people frequently asked me why the only girl in the family ventures out further than the other boys in her family.. practically separated by the South China Sea..
The only ups in being the only girl in the family is that i get to have a whole new outfit when i was younger... but i liked the hand-me-down clothes from my elder brothers.. i like their big T-shirts and cargo shorts.. i would always get in trouble when they found out i have been wearing their clothes...ehhe... i always felt so cool wearing them... and their friends will know that i'm related to them....
Then one day (circa 2008 CNY), i heard the usual conversation between my mom & a friend....
Friend: "o, she must be pampered by you & the brothers for being the only girl in the family.."
Me (thinking): "No i never was..."
Mom: "no la...we have made sure that she wasn't being pampered earlier on..."
Me (thinking): "See, mom just confirms it..."
Whenever an argument occured between mom & i about how i was never of any help in the house... & she would start comparing me to her other friends' daughter, who was ever so happy helping out with the laundry and cleaning the house... One of my defence was..
" It seems like you only wanted to have me/a daughter so that i can be your Maid..!"
(I know that's not right but that's how i felt...honestly )
" Why am i the only one who has to do it (wash the dishes, do the laundry.).?~~"
"Because you're a girl.." (argh...~~they use this same excuses for lots of thing i have to do and i can't do...i'm really sick of it...)
So now that i am here.. away from them... i kinda miss them.. hehe.. one's married, the other a recluse, the other's in his first relationship with a gurl, n the younger one's in a world of his own...
What bums me the most is that i never get to see them whenever they come to visit (KL).. they never even mentioned that they are coming.. until the last minute that dad called and told me (my own sources)... I expected more from my eldest brother , since we rarely get to see him when we were little....(him studying abroad from standard 3 in Singapore, until graduating from an Aus Uni).. he was always the fillial son.. but he wouldn't informed me if he's around too...*sigh*
I never expected much from Khiong though.. so when he said he's too tired to meet up yesterday nite..i was already expecting it.. eheh.. but i did pushed a little... (I can be pushy...coz I'm a girl..hehe...now 'I' can use that excuse..) so i guess he's on his way to the airport now.. o..well...*sigh*
Another time then..~~
If they were all girls & my elder/ younger sisters... they would most probably act the opposite right..~ ? Let's see...
(Erica, Cecille, Brenda, Jessica(younger)...
Me: "Hey sis..can i try your clothes on?"
Erica: "Sure..knock yourself out...i have loads of them in my closet.."
Cecille: " I have an idea...Let's play dress up.."
("yeay..!" exclaimed all..)
Jessica: " I want to play too.."
Ah..~~wistful thinking.. :) ...
So i think that explains a lot.....
The only ups in being the only girl in the family is that i get to have a whole new outfit when i was younger... but i liked the hand-me-down clothes from my elder brothers.. i like their big T-shirts and cargo shorts.. i would always get in trouble when they found out i have been wearing their clothes...ehhe... i always felt so cool wearing them... and their friends will know that i'm related to them....
Then one day (circa 2008 CNY), i heard the usual conversation between my mom & a friend....
Friend: "o, she must be pampered by you & the brothers for being the only girl in the family.."
Me (thinking): "No i never was..."
Mom: "no la...we have made sure that she wasn't being pampered earlier on..."
Me (thinking): "See, mom just confirms it..."
Whenever an argument occured between mom & i about how i was never of any help in the house... & she would start comparing me to her other friends' daughter, who was ever so happy helping out with the laundry and cleaning the house... One of my defence was..
" It seems like you only wanted to have me/a daughter so that i can be your Maid..!"
(I know that's not right but that's how i felt...honestly )
" Why am i the only one who has to do it (wash the dishes, do the laundry.).?~~"
"Because you're a girl.." (argh...~~they use this same excuses for lots of thing i have to do and i can't do...i'm really sick of it...)
So now that i am here.. away from them... i kinda miss them.. hehe.. one's married, the other a recluse, the other's in his first relationship with a gurl, n the younger one's in a world of his own...
What bums me the most is that i never get to see them whenever they come to visit (KL).. they never even mentioned that they are coming.. until the last minute that dad called and told me (my own sources)... I expected more from my eldest brother , since we rarely get to see him when we were little....(him studying abroad from standard 3 in Singapore, until graduating from an Aus Uni).. he was always the fillial son.. but he wouldn't informed me if he's around too...*sigh*
I never expected much from Khiong though.. so when he said he's too tired to meet up yesterday nite..i was already expecting it.. eheh.. but i did pushed a little... (I can be pushy...coz I'm a girl..hehe...now 'I' can use that excuse..) so i guess he's on his way to the airport now.. o..well...*sigh*
Another time then..~~
If they were all girls & my elder/ younger sisters... they would most probably act the opposite right..~ ? Let's see...
(Erica, Cecille, Brenda, Jessica(younger)...
Me: "Hey sis..can i try your clothes on?"
Erica: "Sure..knock yourself out...i have loads of them in my closet.."
Cecille: " I have an idea...Let's play dress up.."
("yeay..!" exclaimed all..)
Jessica: " I want to play too.."
Ah..~~wistful thinking.. :) ...
So i think that explains a lot.....
Friday, October 24, 2008
My Alternative Blog
My friendster blog was getting way too public..~plus, it gets kinda annoying when people were notified every little time i changed/ updated the past posts... i get it...
So this is where i'm going to start where i left off...~~
So this is where i'm going to start where i left off...~~
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