Another post for December 2014

Let's go straight to the point, i will plan to do the following for 2015:-

1) Backpack to an Asian country (Philipines maybe)

2) Go to at least 1 concert even if it meant me going alone

3) Go to a fun fair

4) Go to a book fair ( Big Bad Wolf)

5) Go to Jump Street PJ for a little bouncy fun

6) Try to Go to the gym often

7) Go to China Lung Yan ( Kong2's birth place). This could probably be in April as well.

8) Pay off PTPTN loan

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My company is planning a company trip from 29th April till 5th May 2015 anywhere from Australia to China. However, i already have a trip planned with my 2nd elder brother to Laos Vientienne from 2nd may till 5th of may 2015. I have already bought the ticket and booked the hotel. I am really excited about this trip because i hardly have time to bond with my brother ever since .. Well forever.. I don't know how it's going to go down, i just hope that he's not going to be angry at me all the time.

When i do go for the company trip, i might bring along my MamaRoach. 

But i saw that the price is 5k to 6k. *Faint. Maybe i can ask the brothers to chip in. Slim chance.

A few weeks left for December 2014. I will go to the Big Bad Wolf book fair to get some books for the niece and nephews.

December 2014

Hooray... My favourite month of the year is finally here. Well as i am typing this, there's 8minutes left to midnight.

Anyway... Yay... I love it, one thing is because it's my birthday month!

And Christmas is just around the corner.

I get to spend and pamper myself without guilt.

Breast pain

I have been experiencing severe burning pain on my right breast for close to 1 month. I did some reading and found out little about what caused it.

My reading did suggest that it might be the side effect of too much caffeine in my diet.

I have been chugging 2-3 cups of coffee a day. Now that we have ran out of the 3 in 1 cofee in my office pantry. I am now free of caffeine. Well, i am drinking tea now.

And another cause one is probably because of a pinched nerve somewhere. What i do know is that breast pain is not a usual cause of cancer.

I am thankful that i am pain free for 2 days now. Still stings a little though.

Let me break it down for you.

The pain is like, it didn't hurt if i didn't touch it. But once I did, it started with a pinch and spread to la hot fiery/ burning sensation. I mean it hurts like a mother. It takes my breath away. I would grunt and doubled over.

I had so many theories in my head, including bug bites, stung by an insect, some creepy crawlies like on the TV shows about monsters inside you, some spell, ghostly encounters, effect of taking too many supplement at once (lecithin-e, tumeric capsule, pine bark tree tablets), or the effect of propping on my elbows watching the computer screens which in turns choked up my blood flow to the arm and breast. I mean all the weird things. I did not go to the doctor. Why? Coz i think it will go away. And i hope it will. I have been taking EPO which I've heard can reduce the pain.

Am i hormonal? This does not feel like PMS. 

I told my coworker about it, and she doesn't seem to get it and straight away told me she had breastpain too. Not a really good listener. Anyway, I'm dealing with it and again thankful for the pain lessening.

Impromptu hair cut

After a spontaneous lunch of Sup Pedas Kajang yesterday, my colleagues and i went for a hair cut. The hair dresser is an old man with years of experience and acolades from overseas and even invented a technique of cutting hair. After i misheard the receptionist who is also an old lady said rm15. I said ok for a hair cut too. So i went for mine after Jack's turn.

Here is me being so vain, i love my long hair. I had it coloured just this month and even had to pay an extra rm20 for them being too long.

Then i told the guy i want a trim, but not too short.

Or maybe i said i want to cut it short but not too short.

He asked do i need some layers? I said yes.

He wants to lightened the front with some bangs or layers. I said ok.

So i took off my glasses, and i felt the guy chopping away at the back and my face turned hot. 

Silently hoping he did not chop off a lot.

And reassuring myself that my hair will grow back even if he did.

I always had  this notion that people do look thinner with longer hair.

Then he started at the front. I had deja vu many years back when i first got my hair straightened and the hairdresser chopped off my hair to give me bangs. I can feel my face turned hot.

I am ashamed to say i almost cried. 

I was charged for rm25 for a haircut that i didn't want.

He gave me a slightly longer version of the Julianne Hough's hair cut.

As i stand in front of the mirror, i can see that i look more mature. I guess that is not a bad thing.:)

I had a bad dream

A rare one. In my dream, there were a lot of black scorpions in a  box and one of it stung me on my fingers. I was so scared and then i realized it was just a dream.

According to the net, it is a sign that a false friend is going to back stab me and hurt me.

I really hope that is not true. Because whatever friends that i have now, i choose them myself and i don't surround myself with people that i don't like.

Howvever, i do have a few people that i think does not like me very much:-

1) SP saw (my ex-colleague)- i think he think of me as pretending to be naive and he is not blind to it.

2) Ah wong (my subcond)- he just doesn't like me 'coz he knows i am not worth the effort. Coz my boss likes ms ho and ms yeap better. Well he's right.

3) Ah hee (my subcond)- coz all my job is small money to him. Compared to ms ho's that is worth a lot of money.

Ah well.. You can't please everybody.

Also, people who likes to slap/ grab my ass:-

1) Gale

2) Ms Ho

3) Ms Yeap

Ms yeap also complained about how boss isn't treating her fairly. Saying he always compared her with ms ho. Well i heard what she had to say. But i also think that she still got the longer straw while i'm the one who has the shorter straw. She got the manager title, she got the free smartphone, she got the extra 5 days leave to 21 days. Together with ms ho. So i really don't think she should complained as much either. Boss actually told her that to her face. Which at the time, i really think my boss is out of line.

The people that i've worked with from other company introduced me to others as a Sr. and they thought that it meant something good. That it is something to be proud of. I got the Sr. title just because i have work longer. I didn't get the manager title like my 2 juniors. That is a slap in the face if i ever saw one. 

I knew i screwed up for not being able to control my emotions. And i think that will stick to my boss like a chewing gum. He doesn't reply my messeges, so i did whatever i think is right for his company.

He is planning on selling the company. I wonder what it will mean to me when that happens.

Well, here's a picture of a very delicious loh shu fun that we ( CY, Jack, Ho, Yeap, Ho's brother , Wee, Yap and i) at Somewhere near seri kembangan. I'll come here again for the food. :)

A touch of the Divine

I was at Singapore last weekend. I agreed to go to church and i thought it was going to be like a Church church. With the old building, no ac, people fanning themselves, stuffy, you know ... traditional church. I was waaay off. It was like a grand tv production. We were late by half an hour and when we reached, they gave us the top row stage left. The songs sung hit close to the heart. I was one of the most emotional one among the 3 of us (gale, LP and i.. LP didn't come along). I cried like a baby in all sappy tear jerker movies. And the situation was reversed that day. I have to admit that i fought hard at holding back tears. I couldn't even look at my companion in the eyes.

We had Marilyn Hickey an 80+ year old pastor's wife who is still actively travelling all over the world to spread stories of miraculous events.

I want all that is said to be true for my friend. All the miracles and power of believing. The power of having a positive mindset. That eventually, we will all prevail.

And now for some singapore food.

Breakfast at ONE MAN COFFEE- CUTe Barrista :)

Latte heart shape

This is really good. A tad dry, but really good. A long name for a bread with a hole in the middle filled with eggs and cheese. Also some sweet mince meat to top it off. Gasshouse ...*something2.. I really wanted to try their grilled cheese. Oh well... some other breakfast then.

Holiday Inn Express Orchard.

Wild Honey for some catching up with old friends and new friends.- with Gale, LP, Shwu yuan, Tony, David and Ryan.

We were treated by Tony and Ryan on different occasions. Thanks. Please know that we do not take that for granted.:)

Love is in the air

I think i'm in love again. In love with Charlie Hunnam. 😍😘.

I just started season 2 of Sons of Anarchy and i think the writters for the series deserve a freaking medal. Man give them one of them awards. 

 I never thought of Charlie Hunnam as the hunky guy while watching Queer As Folks UK.

And boy was I wrong. Again, i just wanted to announce my obsession here so people will think of me as less creepy.

My friend Grateful

I realised that i don't have many friends here. The ones that i have, they are all good friends but they are not around. And i do have one ..but problem is, I don't like to be the ear to all her drama that happened in her office. I can tolerate a little drama. But not everytime. It is so not good for my morale.

I complained too but not THAT much. I am not a good at giving advice mainly because I think I have yet to experience all that life has to offer. 

I am grateful that i have her in my life right now but not so much to the point of going to Osaka with her and the 2 dramas that are going along.

I kind of like my peace and quiet. I like the unpredictable sky nowadays. But i do not like the stomach ache i've been having that spoils my perfectly planned Sunday.

Gym

I started going to the gym. I had so much fun on my 1st day. We did morning workout. Then the 2nd time was at night. I was a little put off by the number of people that went to the gym at night. 

The 3rd was better. I hope the 4th time gets better too.

Wedding on May the 3rd

I was back in Sabah last week from May the 1st to May the 5th 2014 to attend cousin Connie's Wedding Dinner at Perkasa Hotel on May the 3rd 2014. I haven’t been back since early this year for Chinese New Year. Since I did not planned any adventures for the first half of the year, this was a good opportunity for me to go home and visit my hometown.

Wouldn't it be cool if they had their wedding on May the 4th 2014. I guess they are not a big fan of Star Wars :p.

We arrived on time at 6.30pm. It was a first for me, considering Ranau people has the tendency to be 30minutes late to everything. And as i stood outside waiting for my big brother and his family to park the car, the cold wind is more than welcoming. Aping (my only younger brother) barely made it. He came in behind the wedding couple wearing what appeared to be a coat. He looked like a wedding singer. He sat on our table next to PapaRoach, all eyes on him. And he was always so comical that we couldn’t help but laughed at him for being so formal with pops. He pat pops on the shoulder and shook his hand and asked ‘ Pa macam?” .. an equivalent to “ How’s it Going?”.. That warrants a laugh from around the table. At the same day, he flew from Bangkok to KL, from KL to KK and took a 2 and a half hour car ride with his friend Esmet to the wedding in Kundasang. I used to planned / think of everything for him. Until one day I realised that he does not need me to do that anymore. I kind of wish that he was born a girl so that I can have a sister and I can do things for her.

This May 2014, Ranau town for the 1st time that i can remember experienced a hot spell. It was free sauna every day and every night. We didn't get the fresh and chilly morning/ night air like we used to. It was a complete contrast to the unusually cold weather that we had early of the year (during Chinese New Year).
I was told by Cousin Carol that the dinner will only start at 7.45pm. This gave us ample time to mingle and catch up with the rest of the family whom i hardly see anymore. I was looking around wondering where they were since i saw a few of them arrived earlier. Cousin Induk was with her new family and i was kind of thinking that she might not want to be disturbed with the baby and all. But as i walked up to her, it was like I never left. We talked and she suggested that we exit to the door next to her table to the backyard for some air.

Lo and behold, the majority of the cousins, nieces and nephews were already out there standing around/ chasing the kids around the green. We are all enjoying the cold mountain air. It was a nice little reprieve from the hot weather in town. Induk has Idan (her husband) to carry baby Ozil around. He was such a Daddy’s boy. One of the cutest babies i have ever seen. Cousin Karen's kid is super cute too. Well i haven't really met the boy face to face. But I've seen pictures and videos. Trust me when i said a baby is cute because if they are not, i wouldn't say a thing. The niece and nephews were running around like they have never seen nicely cut green grass before. I saw worried faces of parents/ cousins keeping their eyes on the running kids. Some even ran along with them. Well that's my brother Wai with his son Yau Yau while his wife catches her breath and was talking to us :). Wai was running along his son with one hand on the hood of his yellow jacket trying to catch him in case his foot catches on to something. They yellow hood which was too big for yau yau was a gift from Wai’s friends when he/ she went to Australia. Such a nice gesture.

I don’t know if I have succeeded in trying to explain what it feels to be surrounded by the people that you have known your whole life and the people that has just recently came into your life and are there to stay. It was a simple wedding on a mountain side where the night sky was clear, the stars were shining, the mountain air was fresh and loved ones were around.

There were dancing and singing by a few regular Ranau’s wedding singer. SIL Brenda also commented that Ranau Got Talent. It was a perfect night. An almost perfect night only marred by innocent children’s fighting the outsider who was just trying to fit in with the tight knit group. I feel for my nephew (Eden) because it was me all over again.

Anyway, I was glad that I was back and I am looking forward to going back again this July for Hari Raya 2014.